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yeah,3rd of October, right after ayu's birthday... He came to my house... Yeah you know who he is... I was making my orange + honey juice then, and my sister was bathing, so i couldn't find anyone to accompany me through the awkwardness... So i sneaked into my bro's room (as he was in my second living room using my computer) and i didn't even say 'hi'... I knew, i knew what happened...
I knew that my brother told Alan Delon what really happened and i think he started to avoid me...
As i was playing my bro's laptop, i talked to my sis, i told her to be faster because i felt insecure... So i turned on my bro's winamp and started to listen to some song... Then my sister walked in, she gave me the oh-my-god look and i nodded my head awkwardly... Didn't know what to say i turned back to the laptop...
Memorial address ~take2 version~
Munasawagi to tomo ni nemuri ni tsuita yofuke
Totemo kanashii yume o miteita no o oboeteru
Sono asa yokan wa chinmoku o yaburu youni
Naridashita denwa de genjitsu no mono to natta
Kokoro ni kienai kizuato o nokoshita mama
Anata wa hitori hoshi ni natta
*Sayonara ne mou nidoto aenai basho e itta none
Eien no wakare no tsumetasa o uketomerarezu ni
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Atashi wa anata ni tashikani aisarete itatte
Tatta ichido de iikara
Owari naki hazu no kanashimi wa maku o tojite
Kisetsu mo kawatte samusa ga yakeni mi ni shimiru kedo
Are wa wasure mo shinai natsu no hajimari no hi de
Atashi no kawari ni kotoshi wa sora ga naki tsuzuketa
Datte amarinimo yume no tsuzuki no youde
Mada naku koto sae mo dekinai mama
Sayonara ne saigo no kotoba sae todokanai
Wakare no tsumetasa o
Iyatte hodo omoishirasareru
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Sugoshita ano hi o kuyandari shitenaindatte
Tatta ichido de iikara
Doushite souyatte saigo no saigo made nee
Omoide dake o oiteku no
(*) repeat
Kore wa tada no yume no tsuzuki no monogatari de
Atashi wa mada me ga sametenai dake to itte
I remember I went to sleep late that night feeling uneasy
And had a very sad dream
The phone started to ring in the morning, breaking the silence
And the premonition became a reality
Leaving an unfading scar on my heart
You became a star by yourself
*Sayonara --- You have gone to the place where we can never meet again
I can't accept the coldness of the eternal parting
I wish I could have heard from you
That I had certainly been loved by you
Only once, even if it had been a lie
The sorrow I had thought to be endless came to an end
The season has changed, I feel bitterly cold
I will never forget that first day of summer
The sky kept on weeping instead of me this year
I feel as if I were living in the continuation of the dream
And I can't even cry now
Sayonara --- Even my last words don't reach you
I'm made to realize the coldness of the parting
I wish I could have heard from you
That you never regretted the days we had spent together
Only once, even if it had been a lie
Why did you do it this way
Leaving memories only to the very end?
(*) repeat
Please tell me this is only the story of the continuing dream
And that I'm not yet awake
This is one of the songs i've listened to... I don't know why, my visibility were blurred and my innocent hand kept rubbing across my eyes... Yeah, i'm not awake yet, as i was still in his world but he is not in mine... I just couldn't find a way out... I don't even think of meeting him again... Because i think he's scared of me...
Memorial address is a nice song which can really make people sink into those feeling... I felt miserable yesterday, i kept on saying i felt bored because those feeling of awful sadness came back again...
Yes, i love him very very much... but i have to say sayonara since i've lost the strength to set eyes on you...
love you
Alan delon
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