Date : 30th of August 2008
Time : 23.38
Weather : BLACKOUT
Mood : Miserable and HEAVEN
Well, It has been the second day with my entire family and including Suyin... She's like a part of the family now... So i guess... HAPPY to see her...
Daddy opened a bottle of wine on Friday (we are on Saturday now)... So i was like, i couldn't control myself so i just kept on filling my glass... One cup by another... i drank up to 5 cups for god sakes and i felt blur... I can receive what people were talking about but i got it slower than normal...
Today... I went to East Coast Mall... I saw Goh and Huimin... That hairy cheater said that she doesn't have a transport to East Coast but then she was in front of my eyes... Yeah, with someone you don't want to know... Bought one and the half dozen of Big Apple Donuts and well... It was nice though... when it has BOSS in my mouth... swimming.... aicks
Um... where was i? yeah. We went over for dinner and yeah... Drunk myself with wine again... AND one drop of SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And now you know what? My bro's crying... No, not the eldest one... The soft hearted one... I dont know what has got into him... will tell you later...
ADIOZ...
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Date : 21st of August 2008
Time : 21.17
Weather : cloudy
Mood : Miserable
It happens occasionally nowadays, but it happens every Thursday at my Account Tuition... Yeah, bet you know what i'm talking about if you know me well...
I am close to my friends... Closer than ever... Because i love them very much... But then, ignorance happens sometimes... So i tried to ignore...
Goh was good to me... But sometimes she doesn't care people so much like we do... In account tuition, she's like didn't know me... I barely even talk to her... So i wrote one small note on paper to Huimin so that Goh wouldn't listen to what i say... I wrote ‘我和她们俩，远了。。。’ She immediately asked me what happened... So i said Goh barely even talk to me... Today we went out, we didn't even talk things that related to our lives... So i was moody all day... Right after Goh fetch Vivianne back, i silenced myself... didn't know what to say... Goh asked me what happened... I paused for a while... Should i tell her or? My style again, I said nothing...
I really care what people think of me... It's my Life... I mean, Goh and i were like, talk until the morning oso wont stop... But these few days... I don't feel like talking... Now when ever i say things, i'll start from Vivianne first... Because Goh didn't talk to me and i didn't plan to force her to talk to me right?
Sorry i lied to you guys... i know today you guys are gathering at Yijing's house... Bet there's Foong Xin and Yoke Yee there... Since Goh didn't want to talk to me, so i passed... I didn't feel like going... So i lied, I lied that my father didn't let... I'm selfish i know... It's just no point wasting time there wondering...
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Date : 18th of August 2008
Time : 22.03
Weather : rainy day
Mood : HAPPY
Well... I just came back from the 4 days 3 nights trip... same experience but in the different way...
15th of August
Reached Kampar at 2 something and we brought Hao Hao for lunch... Kampar was so daMn hot and i barely even opened my eyes... Then, we went to Penang after our lunch... Gladly we reached there at 5 so we have time to rush for dinner with Yuen kor and Suyin jie...
Kor brought us out to Teluk Kumbar to eat Seafood as we barely even swallow one before... And Bro ordered this...
We used to collect them at beaches but then, i actually ate them... Sorry about that... Well, too much of meat that night because we drank the 'la la' soup and pork some more... only a plate of vege... Then we went walk walk around Penang...
Do you want to know what Vistana looks like?
This is the Mirror of the toilet... I love it when the Mirror is enhanced with lights...
There you have the full view without the bath tub...
The view from the door
16th of August
So... Morning wake up... They offered us breakfast... They had Nasi Lemak, Fried Noodles, Porridge, Cherry Tomato, Papaya, Watermelon, Cereal, Guava Juice, Orange Juice, Chrysanthemum Tea, BOH Tea, Coffee and not-so-fresh milk... Mummy and i had to queue up to get ourselves filled... Bro bro brought us out for lunch at a food court... they ate Chao Kuer Tiao and i was full... So i didn't eat a thing except for a bowl of Air Batu Campur... Then, Bro brought us to a stall... They were famous of the Cendol... I didn't really like it because we have to stand along the alley and stand eating... I saw two posters around the corner... Aslan's picture is used to promote the wild life thing... And i saw Ayumi's poster which they used to promote the saloon... HAHA....
Since Bro wanted to attend the Account class, he dropped us off at Queensbay Mall... So the first trip in the Mall... TOILET
Then i took pics out of there... Um... there's nothing much in Queensbay Mall... I bought chocolates for Suyin jie jie and myself of course... And Energy BAR!!!!!!!!!!!
Then we went back to hotel... To continue daddy's olympic episodes and my bath
Last minute touch ups before Suyin jie jie's Convo
This is my 16th of August look... But with...
Brother was holding two bouquets of flower... All for Suyin!
HAPPY together
Suyin jie jie and her family...
That night... we went to RIBS for the Western Food... the Environment was nice... Especially the Wine Rack
I ordered these 2 dishes... Tomato Soup and New Zealand Lamb Chop... It was marvelous...
Oh well, It's time to say goodbye to Penang... I will never forget these memories...
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Time : 22.45
Weather : Half Moon Darkness
Mood : GUILTY yet again...
Been miserable all day... Because of something dreadful... I just couldn't believe that things that I've done... Are slowly tearing my friend into pieces...
I am very close to my friend... Except some of them who didn't want me to understand them... I mean, hey... I didn't know what to say...
I've read closely to Vivianne's blog recently... especially the 070808 one... I saw the word 'her' appeared loads of times on her post... So i asked her... Because she mentioned about 'playing her hair happily'... Instincts told me that she's talking about me... So i was like 'Um...'... Because Huimin, a.k.a God Brother, likes to play my hair and she said it was the feeling of sister... Little ones... That's all...
She replied me... It was 'Lc and Pong Huimin'... I felt weird... Because yeah, LC i know... But what about Pong Huimin?... So i immediately asked her again... She said 'secretly, i'm jealous of you too...'
I was like 'WHAT?!!!'.... Pictures came in to my mind...
1. Yeah, she did play my hair and it doesn't mean anything to me...
2. Um, I liked being carried in the back of Huimin because my elder brother did that to me when i was young... I just miss that feeling... Makes me feel young!!
3. I slept at her shoulders... Because her shoulders are meat enough to be slept... not too bony and too meaty...
4. I helped her homework????????
Well, Viv, that all meant nothing to me... Plus, I'm freakingly in love with the other guy... There's nothing to be jealous of... nothing at all... I am not all glamorous than you and why put the 'J' word on me? It's not worth it...
I love you very much... As much i love them... I love you, i love goh... I love the 2 huimins... So no worries okay?
You're word 'Jealous' made me feel miserable today... I was thinking... Am i the one who hurt you that much?
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I've never seen this kind of weather before... This is the BEST weather even it doesn't have to go through the thunder storm thing... Well, thank god i get to see this weather...
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Date : 6th of August 2008
Weather : Minutes before Dark
Mood : GUILTY yet again...
What do you feel when you regret that you didn't LOVE someone when he's with you and you started to grow feelings towards him when he's not by your side? GUILTY huh? I couldn't believe it... I just couldn't accept the truth... Again, he's a good actor, BEST yet exclude Johnny Depp... Both are great actors...
I didn't feel GUILTY at first... But today's Chinese lesson, not really a lesson, we were discussing about Autism where children refuse to talk to people and living in their own world... I didn't know about it until i know somebody...
yeah, Heath again...
My teacher said this Autism thing, is kinda in serious state while you were young... But then, it occurred on an adult... Heath... My friend, aka God Brother told me about him... Which i didn't really know at first... She told me that he closes himself in a room... Shuts himself up just to suit the character of the Joker in The Dark Knight... But when he refuses to talk to anybody (what about his daughter Mathilda?), he's afraid to shut himself up in a room... When he does that, he'll imagine The Joker is with him... So when he's in a room or something, he'll open the door... Just to occupy the empty spaces...
He ate sleeping pills... 2 pills just to sleep for an hour... When he shuts his eyes, the picture of The Joker runs in his mind again... So a pill or more to sleep a little bit longer... But then, there goes Heath...
When my friend told me about this, tears are gathering in my eyes... I still couldn't accept the truth... Couldn't accept one of the BEST actor on earth gone under like that... I LOVE HIM! i just need time to accept... wasted...
I was asking myself... Why they chose him as The Joker? But if they didn't, i won't be enjoying this movie...
I was asking myself... Why wasn't I to be there to help him, accompany him? To make him occupied... Even it takes me to read him bed time story... I'm willing to do that to reduce the risks of Life... I felt GUILTY for not fancying him while he's here...
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Date : 3rd of August 2008
Time : 18.31
Weather : Bright sunless
Mood : confused again... Endless sorrow
I Love YOU
About You
appears
Born To Be...
CAROLS
Dearest
decision
End of the World
Endless sorrow
ever free
everlasting dream
fairyland
fated
forgiveness
glitter
GUILTY
HANABI
HAPPY ENDING
Heartplace
HEAVEN
HOPE or PAIN
is this LOVE?
It was
kiss o' kill
LABYRINTH
Life
Memorial address
Moments
momentum
MY ALL
NEVER EVER
No way to say
Not yet
ourselves
part of Me
Pride
RAINBOW
rainy day
reBiRTH
Secret
still alone
SURREAL
talkin' 2 myself
Together When...
until that Day...
Will
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Date : 2nd of August 2008
Time : 11.05
Weather : Sunny
Mood : HAPPY
I couldn't really believe that we are in our late secondary school now... where we are not children anymore, where we started to social, where we started to do things that is out of our mind...
We went for the Masquerade Ball, organized by our school and Tanah Putih... We went to Megamall for a walk as the dinner started late... Vivianne was there at first for some make-ups and i saw her hair settled! check it out!
A different person right? well, it suits her... Told her not to worry about things like these.... See? it got better than you think dear... we got nothing to do so we snapped a few pictures here in Mega...
This is Goh and me... This picture...
It looks like i'm going to sneeze or something...
Yeah, i looked tall standing beside my brother... HAHA... well, he looked handsome that night... Viv cannot sleep that night... thinking of my bro bro... HAHA... After that, we went back to MS again... so it started...
We went into the hall... it was a nice interior design... Well, we couldn't find a seat... Because they were all occupied... So i was boring again... snapped another one...
So there... weirdos out there... Didn't know what to do around there... I didn't know why... I kept on thinking of him... picture of him flashing around my mind... Flashing wouldn't stop... oh stop stop...
This Ball, is far worse than i expected... Playing games with masks on? We don't think so... So we sneaked out... snap snap again...
I love this pic... Where Huimin looked liang zai, where Vivianne looked so cute... Where i looked so natural, where gog looked funny... I was really happy, really... But too much the sign of him... Shouting all along around... Shouting 'wows' and 'waas' ... Then the last part of this dinner (glad it came around before i went back'
They gathered us around under the disco ball... The music was loud and the bass was perfect... they turned of the lights but they shot the green and yellow ones at the disco ball... I started to move... A couple of moves... but my friends didn't really dare to move... to reduce the gossiping, i stopped... looked at the disco ball... but the picture of him blinding my eyes... i couldn't stop... i miss him!
This disco ball was the BEST thing in this BALL... i love it although you kept blinding me...
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