trip to Cameron (the coldest place)
well, i had a trip to Cameron and i didn't really like it there... I'm sorry it was a week ago and i didnt really have the time to post this, i was having my hectice schedule as usual... haha
Um... 24th of October... I was really not in a mood because i missed my friends so much and erm here i am, in Ipoh-Cameron... i was on the way up to Cameron's first town named Ringlet... i couldn't even enjoy the view up there because i had car sick... i should have taken my grandma's car sick pills... joking only... it was raining and it's hard for the car to drive up safely... our first destination was Uncle Chow Coffee Shop because uncle donald's family (uncle donald, aunt Cecilia and Henry) were waiting for us... i immediately ordered a bowl of hot hot hot red bean soup to warm myself as i made the whole table chattered because of the cold + raining weather... so cold... but it turned out to be cooled down red bean soup... nice try....
we first checked into an apartment called GREEN hill something... it was nice though... After that, while waiting for Aunt Pat's arrival, we took our shower (showering was a bit of problem to us because the water was freaking cold) and i started to read Conan...
Then, we went to OK Tuck for our dinner and then... i thought we are going for a car ride around Cameron but daddy suggested that we go back to the boring apartment as the next day we will do the same thing too... nothing to do actually so i decided to do some addmaths...
while all those adults and gamblers(cousins) came back from the ride... Adults started to chat and children (exclude me) started to gamble... i didn't involve in gambling because first, i don't gamble and second, i was the only girl there... due to the massive interruption, i've stopped my addmaths work and started to read Conan... pro gamblers and pro chatters...
The second day
we packed our stuffs and we went for breakfast... where was it? oh yeah, we went to strawberry farm and cactus and vege farm there... no fun because i didn't really like farms... no offense... then we went for lunch with the cameron highland's someone someone... i wasnt really happy that day i dont know why... at night, we FINALLY went for Steamboat at Brinchang with nice night view of Equatorial... it was nice actually.. and that night was totally annoying because it wasnt only us cousins, there were three more childrens, immatures sitting with us... well, they fought, argued and i had to take care of the little kid... when their mother came up and scolded the youngest son, my brother wrote me a message 'same 2 you' and i quickly gave him a statement 'oh, at LEAST i behaved!' i hate it when he does that... it's not like you are amongst the guys that you are the coolest... fake...
and oh yeah, we moved to brinchang for homestay... COLDER!!!
the third day
rough day as i started my day with thoughts.. i thought of him and i thought of those things that my brother said and did to me because i like him is a 'sin'... then, we went back to Uncle Chow Coffee Shop for breakfast and my Aunts asked me what happened... i said i was tired because of my ridiculous moody face...
we went to KL later that night... and i went to see my sister again... it's boring to travel at night... and i hate it.... i'm not in a mood that's all
born to be___
it shows that we have nothing in common...
nowadays i flash back a lot, oftenly... because i didnt really have a good childhood memory since people around me ruined everything...
when i was young, 8 year old or something... i was wearing my sister's Baby-G to school, because i was jealous of her having this cool GREEN watch that i didnt... so i wore it... my second brother saw me wearing that in school and he was like dragging me out from my herd and grabbed the watch... i mean, it's no offense by wearing it a Day...
secondly, i couldn't believe it was my sister who did this to me... my family and i went to aunt cecilia's ex house for a tea in the afternoon... we kids used to stay in dunno whose room because that room was fulfilled with toys... something happened because i was like having a cold war with my sister... so my sister and my cousin sister Grace boycotted me and i was alone... then, my another cousin sister Beatrice came to play and i tried to find a company to accompany me... My sister snatched her from me and locked me outside of that playroom... since that day, me and my sister relationship were 'whipped' out of the window...
then, when i was in my early 10, Grace, (i think it's her because she was the nearest to the racket) cut my badminton racket's the string thing... i cried my lungs out...
Legos cant cure my heart people... there are things that i hated till these days...
first of all, my second brother's attitude... he thought that liking one of his BEST pal is a sin... he thought that all of his friends are only his, they couldn't be mine... he is not as open minded as me... that's why i hate you... i hate you so much that words couldn't describe it...
second, i feel like singing when i feel like it... i even sing in front of my friends and we get along together very well... i have those feelings that my sister finds my voice annoying... when i started to sing an ayu-high-pitch thing, she was like 'dont bring down the house'... SO WHAT? i feel like it! i mean, no one can force not to do stuffs that i like to do... but how? i love you so i have to tone down a little, when i thought of this thing, i feel weird, i should sing louder because no one, including my sister, can stop me from doing things that i like... i like to sing... especially high pitch songs, BALLADS, you CANT simply stop me... i think you should feel blessed enough for seeing me singing my true voice... as i dare not do that in front of my friends, scared they'll tease me like hell
since that moment on , i pictured my sister as the unwelcome visitor, Amanda Ho... the one who came to my house when i was singing and she was like 'can you stop singing?' you do you think you are...
i'm not going to remove this as this is like a violation thingy... i dont care , i just want to speak my voice out as i dont feel right... sometimes i hate you but sometimes i love you... that's all
born to be___
talks talks talks
we talk a lot since we were in form 1... yeah, us.... goh goh and vivianne.... which i name them mabel aka. louis and viv aka. louis II
then then... we were talking in the dental clinic... which i was waiting for my appointment...
we were talking about goh how she sneaked away from her sister like preventing from her and she was like '我经过你锺意男仔的屋企过度。。。‘i was like... oh 'dont think about him alright...'
so i told her the truth that he has a girlfriend already and i was clear with those words because i said ' i should be happy for him because he had found the one he loves... this one is goh tian ming who told me... then, we went to parkson for a walk... i saw 'alain delon' again... yeah... i should know so... i covered my eyes to avoid that name... I'M HAPPY ALRIGHT...
i just want to forget him that's all... am i telling the truth?
born to be___
i had a dream
this is a nice dream but i had it late in the morning...
I was walking on the road (probably from vivianne's house as i love to pass by his house, well, purposely)and i was attracted by a puppy beside his house... i ran there and i started to pamper the dog, he saw me then in his house, i pretended that i didn't see him and he said hi to me... well, no offense and i hi-ed him back... he asked whether i love dogs or not? i said TOTALLY... and there, he began to scoop out his dog and introduce them to me... so sweet and he said he has another dog and asked me whether i wanted to see it or not... i said yes of course... we were talking like we were BEST friends... and i love it very much...
please, give me another one tonight
born to be___
16th of October, we went to the East Coast Mall, for something...
One Life One Revolution
It's about a campaign about AIDS and HIVs... i like this thing because it's very different... I Love it...
first, you were given an MP3 to listen to stories... there were 3 of them
I went on with 'Jothi'
Jothi's - a girl living in India, parents pass away, she has to live in her uncle's house, as her uncle and her aunt always quarrel... and she went to clinic for medical checkups because she had severe stomach ache... she had HIV negative
Srey Mom's - a girl who lived in Cambodia, the one of the poorest country in the world, her father passed away i think and her mother left with two of her brothers. She was sold to the prostitutes (this was the worst part in the exhibition), then was diagnosed with HIV positive, but she lived happily with her mother and her siblings now...
John - a little boy who was poor and stays in Malaysia, his father passed away and her mother was dying... he was, too, diagnosed with HIV...
these are based on true stories and i hope people who read this will visit the East Coast Mall before 19th of October, it might change your Life...
born to be___
100. WHAT'S YOUR PROFILE SONG? WHY?
Marionette by ayumi, it is a deep song about a crowded relationship... and this song means a lot to me
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99. Nicknames:
chloe, baby, bao bao
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98. YOU EXPERT OF DANCING?
learning though, i wont declare myself as an expert...
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97. WHAT KIND OF DANCE U LEARN?
ayu kinda dance, new jazz
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96. LIED IN THE LAST 24 HRS?
nope...
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95. WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
in the second living room
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94. WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU WENT? WITH WHOM?
school, friends?
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93. WHAT ARE YOU EATING?
nothing...
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92. WHO/WHAT MAKES YOU MAD?
chong huimin's bad attitude, that really pisses me off... but she gets better
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91. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
someone famous, in designing or something related to the entertainment business
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90. WHAT'S IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
black and white
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89. WHAT IS YOUR TREASURED ITEM?
my ayu's album
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88. DO YOU HAVE A FRIEND OF THE OPPOSITE YOU CAN TALK TO?
yeah... goh tian ming... HAHA
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87. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
sure...
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86. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO NOW?
out... out of here...
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85. WHAT FUN THING DID YOU DO THIS WEEKEND?
baked cake, steamboat?
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84. DID YOU DO ANYTHING TODAY?
slept
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83. ARE YOU HAPPY?
no...
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82. WHO IS SITTING TO YOUR LEFT, RIGHT NOW?
no one... HAHA
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80. DO YOU HAVE ANY KIDS?
no way... will adopt one if i'm rich
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79. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO CALL YOU?
goh goh
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78. CLOSEST WHITE OBJECT
mouse pad
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77. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
yeah yeah
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76. DO YOU HAVE BRACES?
yeah yeah... call me the ugly betty
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75. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
always!
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74.Who Make U Fell So Sad?
myself... thoughts
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73. YOU OWN ANY PETS?
nope...
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72. LAST TIME YOU LISTENED TO COUNTRY MUSIC?
faith hill's there you'll be? because faith hill does country songs
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68. WHAT CAN YOU HEAR NOW?
songs... mandy moore's i wanna be with you
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65. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?
tee and short
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64. LAST PERSON TO COMMENT YOU?
vivianne
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63. DO YOU SING?
yeah...
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62. LIKE BALLAD?
yeah...
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61. R&B OR REGGAE?
pop... haha
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59. WHO WAS THE LAST ONE WHO BROKE YOUR HEART?
hang chong wee... that bloke
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58. WHO LAST TEXTED YOU?
goh goh
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57. WHAT JEWELERY DO YOU WEAR DAILY?
ring and necklace
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54. WOULD YOU DIE FOR SOMEONE?
if it's for someone i love very very much
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53. LATEST THING YOU'VE RECENTLY LEARNED?
ayu's new chinese song... Who...
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51. LATEST ADDICTION?
coffee...
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50. IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU RIGHT NOW?
his thoughts
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48. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TOMORROW?
no where... staying at home
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47. WHAT DID YOU EAT FOR BREAKFAST?
pau
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46. LUNCH?
fried rice
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45. Dinner?
spaghetti
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42. ARE YOU IN LOVE?
yeah
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37. FAVORITE DISH?
sushis?
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35. FAVORITE SPORTS?
dancing
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32. JEANS OR SWEATPANTS?
jeans
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31. WHAT IS LOVE?
love is never selfish, love is where people throw in their time in order to see the love ones and love is selfless
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30. WHATS THE MOST IMPORTANT IN A RELATIONSHIP?
trust and love
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29. SADDEST MOMENT IN LIFE?
bidding goodbye
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28. HAPPIEST MOMENT IN LIFE?
on the roller coaster
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27. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED SO HARD YOU MADE YOURSELF SICK?
once... didnt eat for the whole day
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23. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
3
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19. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
ugly betty for instance
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18. DO YOU LIKE 80'S MUSIC?
mamma mia?
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16. DO YOU DANCE TO IT?
haha... yeah
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15. WHAT KIND OF GUY/GIRLS YOU USUALLY GET ATTRACTED TO?
intelligent, someone with great smiles, personality, a lil bit blur
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14.Do U Like Ur Classmate b4?
yeah
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13.DO u miss ur ex relationship?
no
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12. DO YOU CRY AT SOME MOVIES?
yeah... pearl harbor and lord of the rings and narnia and 10 things i hate about you
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11. ARE YOU SENSITIVE?
yeah
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10. CAN LOVE CONQUER ALL?
no way...
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9. BEEN BADLY HURT?
yeah
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7. FAVORITE TIME OF THE DAY?
sleep time
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6. WHAT MAKES YOU SAD RECENTLY?
his thoughts
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5. SEEN ALL THE SPIDERMAN MOVIES?
i hate them...
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4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
winter
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3. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
ayu's concert where i can attend?
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2. ARE YOU SMART?
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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1. WHO DO YOU LOVE?
my friends and family and him
born to be___
1. What is the connection between you and the last person u texted?
girlfriend
2. What is wrong with you right now?
missing him o... but i dont think that's wrong
3. Do you miss your first love?
No way there's i'm missing him
4. When did you last cry?
yesterday
5. Who do you hate?
someone...
6. What do you want in your life right now?
to be someone famous in arts or artist
7. Are you happy right now?
not really...
8. Do you have feelings 4 anyone?
yeah... deep
9. Have you been to a baby pool?
haha... when i was young
10. Drinking?
i drank a bowl of pumpkin soup
11. What is your favorite thing to have on your bed?
bolster
12. Last time you went for a party?
saturday... not an official party
13. What do you wear to bed?
night gown
14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
dont wanna talk about it, dont wanna think about it, i'm just so sick about it
15. What was the last movie you went to watch?
Mamma Mia
16. Name an award you have won:
Best Student in Arts
17. Do you live near your ex?
nope..
18. Are you scared of bugs?
YEAH... totally
19. Are you a cuddler?
nope
20. Do you remember your dreams?
sometimes
21. What do you think of Eminem?
a rich rapper with a poor background
22. Do you read?
yeah...
23. Do you sleep with a teddy bear?
erM, my little puppy
24. Last person that made you cry?
myself?
25. Whose house did you go to today?
no one's...
26.What is/are your favourite colour/s?
black and white
27. Do you like anyone right now?
hell yeah
28. Are you bored?
not yet
29. Are you in love?
yeah
30. Do you say dawg?
dawg?
31. What are you excited about?
this thursday to that AIDS thing and having a cup of coffee in Black Canyon
32. What do you think about life?
not perfect
33. Who was last to cook for you?
mummy
34. What time u slept last night?
12 something
35. What is on your mind right now?
his smile
36. Do you care what others think about you?
often... haha
37. Do you trust people easily?
unfortunately, yeah
38. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
no way
39. Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again?
erm, not yet
40. What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
chinese new year?
born to be___
1.What's his/her full name?
vivianne tay hui yen
2. Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
once... but now she doesnt...
3. Do you know a secret about him/her?
yeah, what kind of secret?
4. Is this person older than you?
YEAH... happy to say that
5. Has he/she ever cooked for you?
yeah yeah...
6. When was the last time you thought of him/her?
everyday
7. Do you have a nickname for each other?
sapo... HAHA
8. How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
wow... uncountable
9. Why is this person your number one?
because she sacrifices a lot for me and i love her so very much
10. Have you seen this person cry? been?
no, she's way too strong
11. How long have you known this person?
form one o
12. Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
why not... always
13. Have you ever watched movies at his/her place?
yeah yeah
14. If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
why not,... till death
15. Have you ever given this person something?
every year
16. Have you ever done something really stupid with this person?
really really stupid
17. what is it that you love doing with this person?
erm, singing i guess? one day it would be clubbing
19. Do you know everything about this person?
not really, this girl is way to deep
20. Do you know this person's shoe size?
5 or 6 lo ?
21. Have you ever worn this person's clothes?
jacket?
22. Have you ever heard this person sing?
haha.... yeah
23. Have you and this person ever had lasted more than 2 days?
what are you talking about?
24. Have you and this person went clubbing?
coming soon...
25. Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
talk pratical jokes?
26. Do you and this person talk a lot?
yeah yeah...
27. Have you kicked this person?
we played?
28. Has this person yelled at you?
nope...
29. Do you love this person?
till death do us part
30. Do you want to be with him/her forever?
YES
born to be___
1. You're trapped in a room for 3 days with your ex, what do you do?
talk to him? tell him stupid stuffs...
2. You're stuck in an elevator with the person you've fallen the hardest for, what happens?
tell him i love him because it was the only chance
3. The celebrity you love the most offers to marry you, as long as you don't talk to any of your current friends or family members anymore. Do you marry them?
nope but i hope we could still be friends
4. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
ask him whether those words are the truth or not
5. If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine. Do you do it?
no way...i hate drugs
6. If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
saw?
7. When is the last time you were in a photobooth taking pictures with friend?
when i was in form 1
8. Who's the last person you had a sleepover with?
chien chien
9. Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
yeah yeah
10. Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand it?
one girl in my tuition class....hehe... my bad
11. On average, what do you think you cry about the most?
him...
13. Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
goh goh... yeah i love her
14. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
it matters a lot! get out of my sight pronto!
15. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
yeah
16. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
no one
17. Are you going anywhere next summer?
study
18. Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
yeah... eagerly
21. Do you secretly like someone?
not really like secret
22. Do you announce when you have to pee?
yeah yeah
23. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
vivianne
24. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
yes...
26. Do you trust people easily?
yeah, and i know it's a stupid thing to do
27. Do you give out second chances easily?
yea
28. Do you smile a lot?
YEAH
29. One thing you're looking forward to?
the day to see him...
30. How do you feel about change?
nothing
31. Have you ever cried from being so mad?
yeah
32. Last time you read a text message and smiled?
long time ago
33. Have you ever made anyone laugh when they were crying?
yeah
34. Are you happy?
no way
37. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
no way,,,
38. First person who texted you today?
sister
39. The person you're in love with moves across the world, what do you do?
wish him the BEST and love him
born to be___
1. Name someone who can always make you smile?
ayu ayu...
2. What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
sleeping
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
doing surveys
4. What did you do last night?
steamboat
5. What color is your hair brush?
orange
6. Have you text voted for an American Idol?
nope... but i was crushed when david archuleta didnt win that thing
7. Hot tea or Iced tea?
iced tea
8. What was the weather like today?
hot and cold... mixed
9. Where did your last hug take place?
huimin's kitchen...
10. What are you excited for?
nothing yet
12. Closest thing to you that is green?
emulator king
14. Last person you spoke to?
mummy
15. Are you very random?
yeah
16. Do you want to get your hair cut?
i just did
17. Are you over the age of 25?
i'm still young
18. Do you talk a lot?
not really
19. Does your screen name have an x in it?
no way...
20. Do you know anyone named Stephanie?
no one
21. Do you make up your own words?
yeah....
22. Are you ticklish?
yeah
23. Are your ears pierced?
yeah
24. Bar soap or body wash?
body wash
25. Are you a jealous person?
kinda
26. What brand of shampoo do you use?
tre-semme
27. Do you have curly hair?
nope
28. Where did you go today?
went to the mall
29. What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
BOSS coffee
31. Red or White?
white
32. What are you doing tonight?
watch ugly betty
34. Who was your last text to?
vivianne
35. What should you be doing right now?
thinking about him
36. Do you have a nickname?
chloe...
37. Are you a heavy sleeper?
always
38. What are you listening to?
OneRepublic's say all i need
39. Is there any guy you love right now?
i admit it... YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
40. When was the last time you did the dishes?
yesterday
41. Did you cry today?
yeah...
42. How big is your bed?
queen size
43. Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
my ex teacher
44. How many pictures are hanging in the room you are in?
two... ayu;s
45. Does anyone like you?
my sister and my friends... DO YOU LIKE ME?
46. Do you collect anything?
WINE BOTTLES!!!!!!!!!!1
47. Last time you went on a date?
long time ago
48. What is on your mouse pad?
mouse?
49. Do you like coffee?
hell yeah
50. Do you know anyone in the military?
prince harry?
51. Number of pillows you sleep with?
two
52. Could you live without a computer?
no way
53. What age were your parents when they got married?
forgotten
55. Do you drive?
no way
born to be___
What's your favorite card game?
show hand
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Did you speak to your mother today?
why not?
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Where do you live?
secretfairyland
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How many months until your birthday?
1 month
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Where is your sister right now?
at KL
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Who was the last person you called?
mummy
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Who's bothering you right now?
thought... there wont be a person bothering me
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Anything you're giving up on?
studies... daddy made me a path...
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Who was the last person you gave your number to?
tian ming, an old friend of mine
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When was the last time you cleaned your room?
friday
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Who would you say is your number 1 best friend right now?
wow... i couldnt count... first would be vv and louis
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How did you wake up this morning?
mummy woke me up
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What's the last bone you broke?
they are perfect
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How many letters are in your last name?
4 of them
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What are you excited about?
nothing... yet
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Do you curse a lot?
nope... i'm a good girl
.
Anything been heavy on your heart lately?
his thoughts
.
Do you drink bottled water?
yeah
.
When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
yesterday...
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Have you lost friends in the past years?
not really...HAHA
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Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
open...
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What's the last thing that made you smile?
when thien playing the rubics cube
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Last person you texted and why?
texted vivivanne about my pendrive
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Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
night
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Who do you tell everything to?
sister
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Have you been to New York City?
i wanted to!
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Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
yeah...
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Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
why not... i always do that
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Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
why not... binajaya kindergarten
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Do you know anyone addicted to anything?
yeah yeah
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Know anyone who's been drunk recently?
me me me
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Where is your phone?
in my room on the bedside table
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What happened at 10:00 am today?
sleeping...
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Do you know anyone by the name of Lee?
Lee Ryan?
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When was the last time you cried?
friday
.
When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
when i was in my primary school... reest in peace
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What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
think?
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How many and what kind of animals are in your house?
i dont have an animal
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When was the last time something bothered you?
always....
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Do you hate any of your ex's?
nope
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What is your greatest accomplishment?
i designed the school's bowling club's Tee
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Would you rather stay at other peoples houses or have them stay at yours?
stay at others
.
Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
jsut now a malay guy
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Would you ever date anyone with tattoos?
no way
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Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
uhuh... HAHA... insanely
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Can you play any instruments?
two pencils and a table...
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What do you miss about your past?
when i get to see bosco... and when i was on a roller coaster
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Have you ever had a song written about you?
no way...
.
What would you probably be doing right now if you weren't doing this?
thinking about him
born to be___
1. Where were you 5hours ago?
☻ here... in front of the computer
2. How did you get the idea for your Friendster name?
☻ ayu was from ayumi and chloe, i thought of it
3. What song are you listening to right now?
☻ ayumi hamasaki - JEWEL
4. What color is your phone?
☻ black
5. Do you click on pop-ups?
☻ nope... it could be virus
6. Do you own a phone?
☻ yeah...
7. What was the first thing you thought this morning?
☻ is he okay?
8. what are you going to do tomorrow?
☻ school and test... i hate test
9. What did you do last night?
☻ ate and played...
10. What's your favorite memory from highschool?
☻ when people started to talk crap
11. What are the last two digits of you cell number?
☻ 25
12. What was the last thing that you ate?
☻ i dont know what was that name
13. Who is the last girl/boy that you hugged?
☻ pong huimin
14. What was the last movie you watched?
☻ the chronicles of narnia - the lion the witch and the wardrobe
15. What do you dislike at the moment?
☻ loneliness...
16. What food are you craving?
☻ ice-cream
17. What did you dream last night?
☻ blackout
18. What was the last TV show you watched?
☻ ugly betty
19. What is your favorite piece of
☻necklace
20. Name 4 ppl on your Top Friends who
are most like you?
☻ vivianne goh goh vivianne and goh goh
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1 Whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?
ayu, my wife
2 What time do you go to bed?
today would be 12 sharp right after i watch ugly betty
3 What was the last thing you did before filling this survey?
went to charge my phone
4 Who's the one you always meet the most?
friends and family
5 Who's the person you're gonna call if you need emotional help?
my sister or vivianne or goh
6 What's on your mind just now?
am i such a loser? why didnt i have the guts to say it out loud before he gets another girl
7 what did you do last night?
ate steamboat, played games, bathe and slept
8 With whom do you wanna have fun?
friends...
9 When was the last time you went out to mall?
this afternoon
10 What do you hate the most for now?
xiao qiang
11 When was the FIRST time you slept alone?
i was in my form 3
12 What things do you want to do now?
hanging out with my friends... they are the only one who fill my empty heart while my sis is gone
13 What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?
online and reading conan
14 Colors that make you happy?
black and white
15 Most favorite things for you?
ayu's album
16 What was the last thing you bought?
shoes and socks
17 Miss someone?
yeah... till death
18 Are you a coffee addict?
kinda... but i'm in love with BOSS only
19 Are you satisfied with your life right now?
not now, ask me this question next time
20 Would you share a glass of water with a friend?
i'm not afraid in sharing...
21 When was the last time you ate seafood?
yesterday
22 Ever had a food fight?
once...
23 What do you usually eat for breakfast?
bread and a cup of chocolate
24 Lost a friendship over something stupid?
twice... over a boy whom i dont know...
25 Been really depressed before?
i;m having it now
26 What's your favorite food?
chocolate
27 Cried in front of your boyfriend/girlfriend?
NEVER!!!!!!
28 Can you remember what you did on the first day of your school in high school?
talking crap
30 Did you ever cheat during an exam?
once... chew jia wei didnt know how to do the essay part and i copied mine to let him cheat...HAHA
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SURVEY
How many texts are in your inbox?
loads
.
Where did your last hug take place?
i hugger huimin, in her kitchen... HAHA
Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past month?
nope...
.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
goh goh...
.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
mummy
.
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
yeah
.
Who was your last text message from?
sister
.
How many TRUE friends do you have?
loads
.
Have you ever kissed anyone named Michael?
i dont know any Michael
.
Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
family
.
When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
friday
.
Who took your profile picture?
myself
.
What woke you up this morning?
mummy
.
Do you have the same best friends now that you had a year ago?
yeah...
.
Have you ever driven without a license?
no way
.
What did you do today?
woke up, had brunch, CZ, online...watch a lil bit of ayu... that's all
.
Who was the last person you hugged?
huimin lo
.
Whats your fave flavor chips?
barbequed
.
Alcohol or drugs?
alcohol
.
Which do you prefer - eyes or lips?
eyes
.
Like anyone at the moment?
sure...
.
Who's the last guy you spoke to?
daddy
.
What's the stupidest thing you've ever done?
love someone who doesnt know the meaning of love
.
Do you listen to your friends' advice when they give it to you?
yeah...
.
What color was the last drink you consumed?
colourless
.
What makes you happy?
ayu, ayu's album, jokes...
.
Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
sleep in...
.
Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?
i bought it from toms girl and it's black in colour
.
would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
cry over the truth
.
Who’s the last person you got into an argument with?
forgotten...
.
Do you trust people?
yeah, depends
.
Your favorite numbers?
3
.
Could you go a day without eating?
yeah.. why not?
.
How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
i dont even care
.
Does it take a lot to make you cry?
not really...
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sunday... one hot sunday although it was raining cats and dogs.... so boring...
my mom and i went to megamall because i wanted to Replace my worn out shoes... after i bought my shoes, we went to see handbag instead...
i thought that being out of home will get me out of thoughts about him... but i couldn't... names around the shops in mega reminds me of him...
mummy went to see handbags and i was like wandering around to look a different bag for mum... i saw one nice bag, but guess what? the name of the bag is "Alain Delon"... man, close to "Alan Delon" right? that's another name that reminds me of him... and i get to pass by the 'swatchzenbach" swimsuit booth and i was like....
maybe i failed to forget him... i failed not to care about him...
living in despair i GUESS
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no mood...
it was suppose to be pong huimin's birthday but it turned out like a crap.... crap...
we organized a GAME so that huimin's Christian friends wouldn't be so bored... But they were like sticking to the laptop watching dramas instead... i mean, after all the effort i put on it... i stayed up late at night to find those god damn lyrics and it was like total crap...
what was that?
from now on, if you organize something, don't call me to do something that you don't appreciate... i dont have much time to waste after wasting it on fat hopes...
maybe i'm just stupid...
yeah... chong huimin, you obviously broke pong huimin's heart... you are one of a kind pal...
but i LOVe you guys...
i really do
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i hate you....
ah hao kor kor
i hate you very much
you must have knew this long time ago
you should've told me earlier
you really have the guts to hurt me
not to mention
so deep
i couldn't sleep
it's all your fault
i dont know you anymore
i hate you
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The Judgement Day
well, it's Friday again, 10th of October... the BEST day of the week... know why? because 'IT'S FRIDAY!!!'
It was different in the first place... the sky started to get bright but it was only 6.25 or so... So bright that sun was visible among the smiley clouds...
Goh suggested to have a treat at the nearby ABC stall, which they blend ice and add sugar on them... It's nice under the sunny day...
Then, we went there right after we watched the 'GUESS GUESS GUESS'... aicks...
as usual we ordered ABC jelly and bottoms up... we were as funny as usual... fooling around...
Then i was looking from goh to vivianne and i saw someone familiar... immediately i covered my face by looking the other side and started to shiver...
'IT'S HIM!' i sort of whispered to vivianne and goh... So Goh were like wanted to take a glance at him but i ushered them to eat faster... I was running away... RUN like i was paid for it...
Goh told me i was a lil bit overreacting by avoiding him, but it was my reflex action... i couldn't control it... I was too scared...
Later that night i was chatting with my ex-classmate Goh Tian Ming... Yeah, you see what did we say...
chloe says:
TIaN MING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kennygtm says:
yeap?
chloe says:
just now....
i went to eat aBC with my friends
you know
the three of us...
and i was like.......................
i saw him there
kennygtm says:
then?
chloe says:
i didnt know what to do and i hands started to shiver
kennygtm says:
did u sae hi to him?
chloe says:
then i was like quickly pay and ran away
i was avoiding him by covering my face
then my friend said he was looking at our table
kennygtm says:
of coz larh
so obvious
==
y u cover ur face
chloe says:
i was scarEd
kennygtm says:
sigh....
u got add him in msn?
chloe says:
i dont think he plays
if i add him
it'll make it more obvious
kennygtm says:
he got plae
hmm..
seriously
u wan to make fren wif him only?
hmm..
i think he got gf dy
chloe says:
har?
who?
kennygtm says:
hmm..
i dunno
caz ...
erm..
u didnt go to tc on mooncake festival tat dae?
chloe says:
nope
why...........?
kennygtm says:
hmm..
tat dae i saw few pairs of couple there
n i saw him wif a gal
n then juz now i saw his fs
it show 'MARRIED'
chloe says:
was that............................................
kennygtm
haha
actually....
u shud b happy
caz ur loved 1 can be wif the 1 he love
n now
wad u shud do is
make fren wif him
n gv him support
tats all
caz fren is important
n if u love him
u shud become his true fren
caz he already found his true love
rite?
I was like.... i didnt know what to say... my winamp says it all... sad songs kept on ringing in my mind... i cried... i just couldn't hold my feelings back when i listen to ayu's Memorial address...
i knew i still love you
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TIME
yeah,3rd of October, right after ayu's birthday... He came to my house... Yeah you know who he is... I was making my orange + honey juice then, and my sister was bathing, so i couldn't find anyone to accompany me through the awkwardness... So i sneaked into my bro's room (as he was in my second living room using my computer) and i didn't even say 'hi'... I knew, i knew what happened...
I knew that my brother told Alan Delon what really happened and i think he started to avoid me...
As i was playing my bro's laptop, i talked to my sis, i told her to be faster because i felt insecure... So i turned on my bro's winamp and started to listen to some song... Then my sister walked in, she gave me the oh-my-god look and i nodded my head awkwardly... Didn't know what to say i turned back to the laptop...
Memorial address ~take2 version~
Munasawagi to tomo ni nemuri ni tsuita yofuke
Totemo kanashii yume o miteita no o oboeteru
Sono asa yokan wa chinmoku o yaburu youni
Naridashita denwa de genjitsu no mono to natta
Kokoro ni kienai kizuato o nokoshita mama
Anata wa hitori hoshi ni natta
*Sayonara ne mou nidoto aenai basho e itta none
Eien no wakare no tsumetasa o uketomerarezu ni
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Atashi wa anata ni tashikani aisarete itatte
Tatta ichido de iikara
Owari naki hazu no kanashimi wa maku o tojite
Kisetsu mo kawatte samusa ga yakeni mi ni shimiru kedo
Are wa wasure mo shinai natsu no hajimari no hi de
Atashi no kawari ni kotoshi wa sora ga naki tsuzuketa
Datte amarinimo yume no tsuzuki no youde
Mada naku koto sae mo dekinai mama
Sayonara ne saigo no kotoba sae todokanai
Wakare no tsumetasa o
Iyatte hodo omoishirasareru
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Sugoshita ano hi o kuyandari shitenaindatte
Tatta ichido de iikara
Doushite souyatte saigo no saigo made nee
Omoide dake o oiteku no
(*) repeat
Kore wa tada no yume no tsuzuki no monogatari de
Atashi wa mada me ga sametenai dake to itte
I remember I went to sleep late that night feeling uneasy
And had a very sad dream
The phone started to ring in the morning, breaking the silence
And the premonition became a reality
Leaving an unfading scar on my heart
You became a star by yourself
*Sayonara --- You have gone to the place where we can never meet again
I can't accept the coldness of the eternal parting
I wish I could have heard from you
That I had certainly been loved by you
Only once, even if it had been a lie
The sorrow I had thought to be endless came to an end
The season has changed, I feel bitterly cold
I will never forget that first day of summer
The sky kept on weeping instead of me this year
I feel as if I were living in the continuation of the dream
And I can't even cry now
Sayonara --- Even my last words don't reach you
I'm made to realize the coldness of the parting
I wish I could have heard from you
That you never regretted the days we had spent together
Only once, even if it had been a lie
Why did you do it this way
Leaving memories only to the very end?
(*) repeat
Please tell me this is only the story of the continuing dream
And that I'm not yet awake
This is one of the songs i've listened to... I don't know why, my visibility were blurred and my innocent hand kept rubbing across my eyes... Yeah, i'm not awake yet, as i was still in his world but he is not in mine... I just couldn't find a way out... I don't even think of meeting him again... Because i think he's scared of me...
Memorial address is a nice song which can really make people sink into those feeling... I felt miserable yesterday, i kept on saying i felt bored because those feeling of awful sadness came back again...
Yes, i love him very very much... but i have to say sayonara since i've lost the strength to set eyes on you...
love you
Alan delon
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