it shows that we have nothing in common...
nowadays i flash back a lot, oftenly... because i didnt really have a good childhood memory since people around me ruined everything...
when i was young, 8 year old or something... i was wearing my sister's Baby-G to school, because i was jealous of her having this cool GREEN watch that i didnt... so i wore it... my second brother saw me wearing that in school and he was like dragging me out from my herd and grabbed the watch... i mean, it's no offense by wearing it a Day...
secondly, i couldn't believe it was my sister who did this to me... my family and i went to aunt cecilia's ex house for a tea in the afternoon... we kids used to stay in dunno whose room because that room was fulfilled with toys... something happened because i was like having a cold war with my sister... so my sister and my cousin sister Grace boycotted me and i was alone... then, my another cousin sister Beatrice came to play and i tried to find a company to accompany me... My sister snatched her from me and locked me outside of that playroom... since that day, me and my sister relationship were 'whipped' out of the window...
then, when i was in my early 10, Grace, (i think it's her because she was the nearest to the racket) cut my badminton racket's the string thing... i cried my lungs out...
Legos cant cure my heart people... there are things that i hated till these days...
first of all, my second brother's attitude... he thought that liking one of his BEST pal is a sin... he thought that all of his friends are only his, they couldn't be mine... he is not as open minded as me... that's why i hate you... i hate you so much that words couldn't describe it...
second, i feel like singing when i feel like it... i even sing in front of my friends and we get along together very well... i have those feelings that my sister finds my voice annoying... when i started to sing an ayu-high-pitch thing, she was like 'dont bring down the house'... SO WHAT? i feel like it! i mean, no one can force not to do stuffs that i like to do... but how? i love you so i have to tone down a little, when i thought of this thing, i feel weird, i should sing louder because no one, including my sister, can stop me from doing things that i like... i like to sing... especially high pitch songs, BALLADS, you CANT simply stop me... i think you should feel blessed enough for seeing me singing my true voice... as i dare not do that in front of my friends, scared they'll tease me like hell
since that moment on , i pictured my sister as the unwelcome visitor, Amanda Ho... the one who came to my house when i was singing and she was like 'can you stop singing?' you do you think you are...
i'm not going to remove this as this is like a violation thingy... i dont care , i just want to speak my voice out as i dont feel right... sometimes i hate you but sometimes i love you... that's all
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