Date : 6th of August 2008
Weather : Minutes before Dark
Mood : GUILTY yet again...
What do you feel when you regret that you didn't LOVE someone when he's with you and you started to grow feelings towards him when he's not by your side? GUILTY huh? I couldn't believe it... I just couldn't accept the truth... Again, he's a good actor, BEST yet exclude Johnny Depp... Both are great actors...
I didn't feel GUILTY at first... But today's Chinese lesson, not really a lesson, we were discussing about Autism where children refuse to talk to people and living in their own world... I didn't know about it until i know somebody...
yeah, Heath again...
My teacher said this Autism thing, is kinda in serious state while you were young... But then, it occurred on an adult... Heath... My friend, aka God Brother told me about him... Which i didn't really know at first... She told me that he closes himself in a room... Shuts himself up just to suit the character of the Joker in The Dark Knight... But when he refuses to talk to anybody (what about his daughter Mathilda?), he's afraid to shut himself up in a room... When he does that, he'll imagine The Joker is with him... So when he's in a room or something, he'll open the door... Just to occupy the empty spaces...
He ate sleeping pills... 2 pills just to sleep for an hour... When he shuts his eyes, the picture of The Joker runs in his mind again... So a pill or more to sleep a little bit longer... But then, there goes Heath...
When my friend told me about this, tears are gathering in my eyes... I still couldn't accept the truth... Couldn't accept one of the BEST actor on earth gone under like that... I LOVE HIM! i just need time to accept... wasted...
I was asking myself... Why they chose him as The Joker? But if they didn't, i won't be enjoying this movie...
I was asking myself... Why wasn't I to be there to help him, accompany him? To make him occupied... Even it takes me to read him bed time story... I'm willing to do that to reduce the risks of Life... I felt GUILTY for not fancying him while he's here...
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